It’s a bitter pill to swallow when you finally realize where you stand. I thought for years that I was much more important to someone than I really am. There comes a point where the lack of reciprocation is so palpable that it’s impossible to cope anymore. And, I wonder how much more can I possibly give without even a trace of acknowledgement?
You see, all my life, friends have meant more to me than family. For a lot of reasons. I’ve tried so hard to be there for so many people only to be left in the cold when I needed it most. I just can’t give like that any more. I’m spent.
My little family, the three of us, is all that I care about. And until someone out there gives me a reason to feel otherwise, that’s all I got. I can’t beat myself up any longer, wondering why Im so forgettable.
And I’ve driven around the lake once this evening and I keep hearing the same thing, “you are worth it and it’s their loss.” Too bad when they realize it, I’ll be long gone.
Ugh. I’m sorry you’re dealing with this. Realizing a friend is not really a friend can be devastating. Sounds like you’re looking at it from the right perspective. ((Hugs))
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It sounds like you finally made your decision from the conversation we had about this a couple weeks ago. I’m sorry for the loss and I know it’s hard.
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You are aboslutely right and I’m happy to see someone else say it or write it. I feel exactly the same as you. I’m done until someone gives me reason to think otherwise.
I’ve been having trouble dealing with this same issue. But you’re right, our little families are all that matter.
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I am sorry to hear you were let down. It sucks to realize you have more invested than the other person does. You are exactly right…It’s there loss!!
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